Just got the second cut of the video, and it looks great. Director wanted more time for editing. Love how dedicated he is, so a few more days is a small price to pay, then…But I so badly want to see the final cut!

Still having trouble closing down old projects and moving onto new ones. I really wish I could find a quiet space for a few weeks on some remote corner of the Earth just so I can get back to writing more without distractions. Life’s been the greatest distraction of late, and I could really use a break.

New World

The next few months will hopefully bring a lot of good news. I’m excited about starting new projects and ventures, and wrapping up old ones. The music video should be done in a few days. I saw the first cut about a week ago, and it looked really good. I can’t wait to see the final version of it.

Tectonic Shifts

Sometimes when I write songs, I plan and focus the structure around building tension and releasing that tension. I often do it without thinking–it’s probably so ingrained in my brain from the music I’ve been hearing all my life that it just becomes part of the plan. I have a very difficult time resisting the urge to resolve the build up of tension in notes.

Recent changes have caused me to set a cascade of actions into motion. It’s always possible to leave things hanging, but I like resolution.

It’s interesting how you can leave clues for the listener throughout a song hinting that difficult times are ahead. I wonder if we pick up the same kind of clues in life. I made a few important decisions last week, and mere hours later these decisions became necessary due to events that followed. If a higher power exists in this world, now may be the right time to start believing.

When it’s just you and your music, it’s very easy to stick to the plan. If you introduce other musicians and players to the song, they will add their own twist to the interpretation of it. The results are often beautiful and spontaneous, but on occasion, heartbreaking.

Piano Love Affair

After the video shoot ended and the energy around it died, I’ve been left with a feeling of restlessness to get the next part of the project done. I am so grateful I have music and the people that I love in my life. Almost nothing else gets me out of bed in the morning in quite the same way. This morning was pretty classic–I bribed myself out of bed and into the cold with the promise of doodling on my electric piano for a few minutes.

Just a few hours ago I sat at the piano again, thinking I was going to pull out a few angst riddled minor chords. Today was one of those days. Instead, I hit B flat major, then F major and started smiling as serendipity led me down a completely different path.

I’m about halfway there with song writing for the short album I wanted to finish after the video. I’m happy when I’m writing and thinking about this, and any emotions that are bottled up find a release when I’m working. I feel safe, and at peace.

Porcelain Doll Continued

We’re starting to wrap up with editing and getting a final draft of the song completed. I felt a strong sense of loss once the video shoot ended, as all the exciting parts were done and the community built around the project would also be lost.

Now it’s just about responding to emails and texts and making sure everything gets done, which isn’t easy. I guess that’s not very surprising, though. I also need to keep up the momentum to take this project to the next level–an EP or a full length album.