More See Saw

Argh, stupid ankle, heal! It’s just a sprain, it’ll take time and it’ll get better but argh! I cleaned my bathroom out today, and spent some more time on my feet after and now it’s telling me I need to be careful with the rest of the day’s activities. I’ve got a bit of walking to do today to meet an old friend, and I’m hoping I won’t be limping by the end of it. My back is also not happy from the sitting. While I’m optimistic that with steady effort I can work my way out of most of my structural issues, I hate sitting around all day.

I’m also really stressed out over finding a new job. If I don’t in a few weeks, I’ll have to leave the country. I go through waves of positivity and negativity, and my brain is trying to flat-line everything into apathy. All the extra time I now have is spent on job hunting, so there’s not much time for music. That makes everything worse…

Saffron, Weak Ankles and Fog

My brain is just starting to wake up from a rather strange funk earlier today. It’s a good feeling, I like having an awake brain. It was a relatively good day, too, so it was surprising.

To celebrate my wakening state, I made myself a drink that I recently created and love: hot soy milk, with saffron, pepper, and honey. I would have added ground cinnamon if I’d had any. Yum!

The next thing to tackle is my ankle; it still hasn’t healed and keeps flaring up as I use it. Swimming is my antidote to the sudden lack of exercise, and it’s working out really well for everything. Time for some ice and some soothing music. Simon and Garfunkel, or maybe some Holst or Warlock.

All Kinds of Pain

My back’s started acting up again; I’ve been sitting a lot and have been inactive over the past few weeks because of my ankle which has triggered my back injury. I’m tired of playing body and mind see saw. I’d like to be in a place that’s quiet and pretty, where I can walk barefoot on some grass and mud and be free of pain, even if it’s just for a few days.

Things are crashing around in my head as well. Have a lot to sort though. But, as always, music will allow me a constructive channel out of it.

Past the Witching Hour

Was just listening to Scarborough Fair/Canticle on loop while icing my ankle, and feeling strangely content and optimistic. Also feeling lucky that I have the support of people I love, and lucky that I have music to throw any angst into and turn it into something constructive. I sang myself hoarse practicing Bridge Over Troubled Water for my friends’ upcoming wedding just before I decided it was time use external methods to dull my pain. Singing and the ice both felt really good.

I need to keep reminding myself to take it easy over the next few days…I want to be able to dance at the wedding next weekend!

Silly Musings

I hurt my ankle a few days ago, but instead of resting it I kept trying to walk it off or work it out. Bad idea. I finally came to my senses on Saturday and gave my self hours of rest and was feeling loads better, and feeling like I would get over it in the next couple of days. But I went to a club to hear a friend DJ Saturday night, and of course I can’t sit still and just listen when there’s good dance music playing. Somewhere in my brain there’s an adult, and that adult tripped a wire at some point and told me to just sit and take it easy after a while. I’m glad I listened, but I’m still a lot worse today, and looking at a potentially longer recovery time now.

I feel like I’ve been playing body see saw over the past couple of years over various things, and I’m hoping there’s a solid permanent solution to it. Haven’t found one that sticks yet, but I’m optimistic. 🙂