AQI: 238

I can’t breathe properly, despite my air purifier. I’ve been paying attention to the threshold changes today, and I could really notice the difference from 160 to 238. I thought it was in the red all afternoon (176 when I’d last checked), but during a meeting I started feeling progressively more light headed and tired and mentally foggy. I checked right after, curious, and realized why I was feeling awful: the AQI is 238 right now.

Still feeling calm, which I’m grateful for. Also have amazing family and friends checking in and staying in touch, thank you all so much for staying connected. I’m so grateful for you and I love you.

My second purifier has been shipped, and will hopefully arrive soon. The one I’ve currently got running is maxed out as the air indoors isn’t really holding out.

Okay, I think I’m going to take a nap.

The Day We Lost The Sun, and Imagining Life On Mars

This was the view outside the window at 8 in the morning on a day the weather forecast had said would be warm and sunny.

Apparently, camera filters can’t capture how orange the sky is all over the Bay Area today, but you’ll just have to take our word for it. And there are articles and photos on SF Gate that are really beautiful. It’s 1:26 pm here, and it’s as dark as 6 in the morning or a little past sunset. We haven’t seen the sun all day and the sky started out a weird shade of brown. It has now graduated to brownish orange. Burnt sienna, maybe.

The smoke from all the wildfires have blocked the sun out today hammering home the impact of climate change and environmental damage. Maybe the plan to emigrate to Mars is unnecessary, as we seem to have brought it to our own planet. When I was a teenager, I used to imagine that I would move to Mars someday and establish a utopian, wonderful colony of humans.

I’m trying to appreciate how bizarre the day has been, and my inner teenager gets to pretend the move to Mars actually happened today. The AQI is still high for some weird reason that I’m deeply grateful for, but I’m definitely not opening any windows to let outside air in. Just like I wouldn’t on Mars or in space. 2020 has been such a weird one.

No idea what tomorrow will look like, but I’ve turned my lights off and have opened the blinds just to be able to marvel at the orange brown outside and the strangeness of the smoke-eclipsed sun. What a day.